Awakening (Part I)

A few years ago, I decided to completely recreate my life.

I wasn't in a horrible situation, but I knew my inner world was really, really toxic.

No matter how much therapy or inner work I did, I still didn't feel deserving of being happy or loved or taken care of by people around me, I was still working so hard for someone else's approval

I had SO much anger against the world, I saw everything as unfair, unjust and really f*cked up. Some days I'd wake up in the middle of the night completely overwhelmed with a sense of regret for not making different choices.

I was CONSTANTLY criticizing myself for how I looked, what I said, what I was doing. And I was doing this unconsciously to my friends too. It was TORTURE!

I was overthinking everything and it kept me from owning what I wanted, I put everyone else's feelings before my own because I felt like I could never really have what *I* wanted in life, but everyone else could

I was always beating myself up on the inside and, while it sometimes pushed me to do better, it also kept me from having the life I wanted.

The struggle was real!

And I blamed EVERYONE! Society, my parents for not showing me better, my therapists for being in victim mentality themselves, the patriarchy for marginalizing people, and me for being a freakin schmuck!

I decided things HAD to change.

Slowly I tuned into the quiet place within my soul where my Ego had no authority.

I started feeling into the deeper energetics of life rather than observing at the surface level.

It was so clear to me how I had given all my power away to other people, to situations I found myself in, to my own destructive narrative.

Something weird started happening.

I could feel the energy of God in others.

Especially those who didn't feel they had any power, who people might even look down on, radiated with so much light that I only wish they could see.

I started seeing people in a different way, not only as their human selves but also as individuals backed by an unlimited pool of power that is always within them. Because they are active creators in the game of life and are also instruments of Divine authority.

This helped me to stop judging and being critical and seeing the world as unfair because I could see beyond the surface, into the energetics and it was so clear to me that...

We are all so powerful! And someone doesn't need to suffer for another to gain.

The world doesn't need to be unfair. And the THRIVING of good people brings balance to the world.

It is an act of LOVE for YOU TO THRIVE. And you can do this through your intention, desire and DECISION to thrive

We can all use our lives and our energy to make this so.

I started with ME, in MY life and it took years for me to realize I was cultivating my inner sovereignty and SHE was teaching me how to play the game of reality.

And I haven't looked back since.

Would you like me to make a post about the steps that I took to re-create my own reality???

Anna TsuiAugust 20, 2021